Thanks Desertsong, just so you know it took me over two years to bring myself to quit drinking, i was sober for a all year before then and only failed for the same reason i did a few days ago- then it was just a couple glasses of champagne to celebrate the new year and no more drinks after that evening, thoses few glasses of booze turned into 2 years drunk. This time i barely made it 5 days sober. I know i have the strenght to pick myself up and beat this stuff, its just one of them days being down on myself and working it out within. I think its good to get humbled and beat down a bit, this will **** me off enough to go back on the offensive and regain control. Actually am starting to recover and am about to slap myself back into sanity. My last drink was early this morning and i wont have another,,, NOW I QUIT DRINKING.