My son has been missing for over 8 years, and there has been no chaos in my life since then. Yet, for me, I cannot get complacent. Working my program every day helps me maintain my serenity and keep my peace. Like the poster above me, it helps me in ALL my relationships and with coping with life in general. I would no more give up my program than an alcoholic with 25 years of AA would give up his/hers. It's what keeps me sane.
I'm glad your meeting went well. I felt just as you do, it was a place where I "belonged", where I could just be me and be totally honest about my life and my feelings. Like Cats, I often say that meetings saved my life...because they did.
Hugs