to David 23
David, I too hope you remember my post. My husband Gary was a very intelligent man, had good jobs most of his life, was a good father and husband when he wasn't using drugs. BUT, he regularly, and ultimately, chose cocaine over his family, friends, a good life. CHOSE it. Each time he relapsed , I thought there were a million things he could have done to stop himself. A relapse is not accidental. Many steps have to occur before the actual relapse takes place. ONLY YOU can get clean. You can allow people to help you, but only you can make it happen. I pray you do.