Originally Posted by
Harambulus 
After writing this I am wondering if it's a good idea to 'bring up the past' like this as I think I agree with Trimpey about it feeding the beast. It brought me down a bit while I was typing it- like I shouldn't be giving attention to my past use.
The Addictive Voice will invariably play down the bad stuff that happened from drinking/using, and play up the good stuff. It is a common phenomenon to "forget" why we quit in the first place, and the RR book has a section on this. (See
"Why Can't I remember the pain?" on Page 122-123 of "RR: TNC").
Personally, I need only remember my single decision to never drink/use again, and to never even re-consider the question again. I don't rely on "selective memory" to debate with the AV; I made a final, irrevocable decision to abstain, and the answer is always never.