Act10n, I was in the chat when you got on last night. You can do this buddy, just gotta put your foot down and make today your first day of sobriety. And once you do get a few days sober under your belt, and are feeling great and confident, just remember that this problem will always be there. It sucks, and what sucks even more is you have to stop doing the things you used to do while you drank, at least for a while. That includes hanging out with drinking buddies. My friend wants to hang out with me this weekend and the first thing I said to him was "Yeah, for sure, but we can't drink". Its tough, especially when you love playing poker (I'm an avid hold 'em player myself). But you can do it man. Keep coming back.