Hey bud, I've seen your posts pop up here throughout the months. It seems like once you decide to stop drinking, you feel pretty good...then you start gaining confidence and begin hanging out with your drinking buddies again. One poker night with no booze, chalked it up as a success. Then 2. Then however many, and once again you are back where you started on a nasty weeklong binge. I get it. I'm the same guy as you. Looking at your experiences empiracally, it often comes down to the same wave maker- your drinking friends. Maybe some time away from those guys wouldn't be a bad idea, eh? Good luck bud, start the new year off right tomorrow.