I think it's natural at first to feel that way. That's where one day at a time comes from. You put off making the decision to drink with the hopes you'll be more rational later on... Sometimes I had to do ten minutes at a time or one hour at a time, but eventually I got to a place where I was more comfortable with the idea of not drinking. I still can't tell myself forever - it brings up the same panicky feelings as it did before. Now, I say one year at a time, lol.