Thank you all for your support. This has been an unreal and extraordinarily hard trail to traverse. And every time I've said to myself "It can't get worse, right?" it does.
Thank you again. I'm doing my best to continue to live my life by my own internal compass, to not live in a perpetual state of re-action, but rather, in a state of action, and to continue to be able to look myself in the mirror each day and be at peace with the person I see looking back at me.