Thanks very much for that link Mike.
And for the nice response.
I started to post again, because I think I learned alot on my own. I had the feeling that i got the last time lots of hateful or bitter responses, from members here and that didn`t help me. But there were always a few, they helped me. So I gave it another shot.
Going thru the heardship... for sure. It hurts, not just loosing ur boyfriend, my love, it feels like loosing a battle, which was never ment to be won.
Thats why I was wondering about Al Anon and wanna go, to get help for myself.
A friend who is an Sober Alcoholic and said, u need to go, u are as sick as he is. And that kinda opened my eyes a bit wider, because its not just about about him, its maybe a bit about me.
Its hard, because I got raised always to help others, and not looking after myself so hard, to be not selfish. And I kinda stuck, because I can`t fix him, I almost have to watch him dieing and can`t do nothing about it.
So I will try it tomorrow and hope the group is good, and can handle me with my totally uncomfortable feeling to go.
Thanks so much guys
Means soooooo much to me