Last night my AH bought a 6 pack of beer and started working his way through them. Only a 6 pack but he always ends his short periods of sobriety like this and I know where he is heading. I ended up drinking one of his beers to minimise how much he was drinking (stupid I know) and it all just made me so sad. AH asked me if I was sad and I denied it, but eventually I told him I was sad and I told him why. I haven't spoken to him since then, I went straight to sleep and he was at work before I got up.
So today I went to an al anon meeting but stupid stupid me I sat in the car outside and watched people go in but I couldn't go in. I would just have burst into tears and I don't want to sit in a room crying in front of a bunch of strangers today. Please don't have a go at me for not going in, I know it was stupid.
