BobbyJ

Yep, It's been a year since he moved away

This week "Grieving" finally kicked in

I stand at the closet smelling his clothes

Clinching onto his shirts

I lay in bed imagining his body laying next to mine

My feet have never been so cold

As my vehicle was parked in the mall parking lot last night

I could see him walk towards me with his precious smile

and I could hear him ask me, "Did you get everything on your shopping list?"

It's hard to eat, It's hard to smile, but it so easy to sleep away the day

I just want to sleep and cry in between

I want too and I do hide from the world on days like today...

I have been reading and reading on the steps of grieving

Nothing seems to take the pain away

They say it's part of the process and it takes time

I just pray, this goes away soon, I hate it....

I cant believe that it has hit me in the head this hard

Im mad at myself, I should be stronger than this, right?!?!?!?

Why now, a year later, do I get to deal with grieving??? WTH???