After a lot of bitching and moaning with my mom and myself i decided to go to a meeting today. I met someone at a meeting last night and he took me under his wing. He couldn't sponsor me because he's not through the steps yet but he introduced me to some of the older (luckily not too old, im only 21 after all) members who had been through all the steps and one guy in particular i identified with a lot. He explained things in a way i could understand. He said our problems start before we pick up anything at all. He said he felt like an outsider since he was 4 or 5. I felt like he knew i wanted a sponsor but he never offered. i guess we need to ask for ourselves or its not real. anyway after a few minutes of dancing around it i managed to say i needed help and asked and he said yes. He gave me a big book and I'm actually excited to read it! I havent been excited to read a book (comics dont count) or really been excited about anything at all in awhile. i guess my point is
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