I had all those same fears. They are really typical alcoholic thoughts.
My analogy is not great but it's the best I've got. When I was drinking it was like being in a small drafty room with a candle. Desperately trying to keep lit what I saw as the only source of light and heat.
In sobriety I've left that room. Seen a whole house filled with heat, light, people, books. Even a garden.
Alcohol is central to everything in your life because you're an alcoholic. In sobriety you'll experience a depth and complexity of experience that cannot be rivaled by alcohol.
I had no idea how much I was shorting myself.
I haven't had a religious experience or anything. I have a really normal life. Not perfect by any means. I am a SAHM with small kids. But I love little things now. I'm looking forward to tomorrow (taking a long shower at the gym in the morning, Christmas shopping, a holiday party). I love driving around at the moment because I can see everyone's lights. Tonight, I love our Christmas tree and my new pajamas.
I never even NOTICED half of this stuff before.
Always great to 'talk' to people here. Stick around!