I'm in the same boat. 46 and out of control - my own worst enemy. I'm quitting, yet again, and hopefully for the final time, today. Just hope I don't stroke out. I can't go to rehab because I have two kids with autism.
I have scripts for lisinopril and propanolol for my high blood pressure and I'll be sure to monitor it. I've done it before on my own. *sigh*
By the grace of god I've never gotten into trouble with the law, with a DUI or anything. I tried to kill myself back in May by drinking (BAC was 4.0) and taking an entire bottle of klonopin. I've tried AA but it's just not for me.
Here's to us, eh? *clink*