Originally Posted by
PaperDolls 
I'm proud of you Pigtails!! You're doing great.
If you haven't yet, I suggest you get a sponsor to help you work the steps. It saved my life. There was no way I would have been able to successfully work the steps on my own. Cool thing is, there's no reason too. There are lots of people willing and able to help you, you only have to ask.
Thank you. I am getting up the nerve to ask someone to be my sponsor. It makes me nervous and I'm not sure why! I guess I fear rejection. (And maybe part of me is still holding back thinking that will mean I'm really SERIOUS about this and need to be ACCOUNTABLE to someone and stick with it, and that makes me scared!!) And I hear that a sponsor is important and that I should pick someone who has what I want and who has certain qualifications etc. so I start to think it's something I need to think over and decide. But I'm also realizing I need to take more action in my life instead of just staying stuck in analysis paralysis. So I guess I should just ask her and see what happens. There's a woman who has been really helpful to me. Back in June I went to an AA meeting and bawled my eyes out and she gave me her number. I stopped going to AA because I felt too overwhelmed (didn't want to face myself... wanted to escape into alcohol again). She texted me and asked how I was doing and went to lunch with me and I told her I am drinking and not sure if I am an alcoholic and felt overwhelmed by AA, and she was totally understanding and nice. When I decided to get serious I texted her and she invited me to the meeting I've been going to. She was there last night when I got my 30-day chip and she gave me a Big Book and was really helpful to me. So I should just ask her. I am such a wimp!