I guess I now know how people felt when I called them up drunk. Last few days I have gotten drunk calls from my brother. That slurring "hey sis, I love you, and then 2 hours later calling again to say "hey sis, just wanted to call and say I love you". It wouldn't be so upsetting if it weren't for the fact he has cancer. He has been on a 3 day drunk and is going to chemo today. As if the chemo and radiation doesn't reek havoc on his body enough. He has to poison himself good before his last chemo treatment. I am so angry at him. I want to call him up and tell him but what good is that going to do? I would only sound like a hypocrite. You can't tell a drunk what they are doing wrong. I hate alcohol. I hate everything it does. I wish I would have never taken that first drink. I hate the destruction, pain and term-oil it has caused my family for generations. I hope I have at least broken the cycle for my daughters and their children. Thanks for letting me vent.
