Dealing with shame
I haven't posted in this particular forum before, but I have been reading around. I really appreciate the advice I've read so far.
After reading posts on this site I was about to go to bed knowing yesterday was the last day I would drink. Not just for myself but for my husband, my cat, my mom, my dad, my grandma, my aunt, my in-laws... but I had this huge surge of shame that made me go to my wine bottle once more. I'm only 27 and have so much life left to live.
How do I get past the initial feeling of shame that I caused others during my drinking journey?
A vicious cycle:
Feel sick of my habit
I stop for a day.
Feel horrible emotionally by shame I might have caused to others I care about
Start drinking again to stop the pain.
How have others dealt with this initial pull back to the bottle? I can't get past day one.
Thanks