I know how you feel positivechange. I used to feel that way sometimes. Alcohol has left a big hole in my life too. I am getting a lot better though. I am starting to get a lot more social too. Alcohol sent me really deep into depression. Modern society makes it really easy for us to disengage and disappear. We have to engage the kinds of people that are doing what we want to do and have the same kinds of lifestyles we want to have.