Bonbon,
Being on our own is like learning how to swim. The water is really scarey at first. Pretty soon you'll be jumping off the high dive. It's going to take time. You had your other friend before who is no longer in the picture. He was support for you. You are just now trying to do this totally solo.
You're going to be fine. Don't let your fear tell you otherwise. I can tell you have what it takes.
Hugs,
MG