Originally Posted by
hwsm 
I'm 47 years old and I waited so long for him to come into my life and it all seemed so perfect. I saw the writing on the wall, little by little, and chose to ignore it.
I just started coming to this forum also looking for support and answers. I really can relate to you especially with your deep love for him. I am 39 years old now, and i feel like we had it all as well and i chose to live in the fantasy of the bliss. Like you, i saw the writing on the wall but chose to ignore it. I also am having a hard time letting go because i had felt like i've been waiting for these "feelings" my whole life, i definitely got caught up in that.
We have been together now over a year and recently the problems with drinking got worse by him loosing his job, financial issues, a DUI, and a whole lotta stuff that has blown up in my face.
It's a tough road, i'm just now trying to figure out how to get to where you are . I wish you a lot of luck and strength, hang in there.