hi- yes i am realizing that. i think i needed to be filled in. i think it was a way to remain connected. and i think because she was 7hrs away i felt i needed to know what was going on. but thru this detachment, i am gaining my own strength to not need to know. also becasue i was in contact with her i used that as a way to know if she was lyining or not. but i am trying to free myself from it all. so hopefully i will cut that number too