Hello Colt.
I'm not an AA guy either, however, the program has some very valuable concepts even if you don't go to meetings. Self study of the Big Book and a general adherence to some of the AA principles has really worked for me.
It was hard in the beginning for me and most of us to accept that we can't drink anymore-- EVER. This was very overwhelming for me. What I was able to get my mind around was that I would not drink today.Simply taking my sobriety one day at a time is what I do.
Lots of support here at SR. Thanks for sharing with us.