Yes, I have experienced similar feelings. My husband won't come right and say it but I know I lost his trust. Several years back we went through the argument stage, however we found it got neither of us anywhere. My husband has gone the opposite direction now and ignores my problem. This is hard because I look to him for support and don't find it. I keep asking, why can't you be strong for me. His response is he doesn't want to be attacked by the grizzly bear. He is right. I try to defend my actions when in truth there is no justification for my drinking. I know I lost his trust and I have broken him down to the point where he does not want to confront me. I know he can't do this for me. I have to, but it's hard to face the fact that "I" have broken his trust. I hope someday I can earn it back.