it took me a long time to understand what my sponsor meant when she said I was "in love with a fantasy" because I didn't want to believe her. in my loving relationship there was a ton of really great stuff...biking, picnicking, swimming, chess, cooking, reading, camping, sex, romance, affection, movies, music, ON & ON & ON...always punctuated by a relapse and lies and disappearing. life with all of its fun and treats and delights became just too damn slippery.
what is the reality of your life? where is the joy? you say it is madness.
some of us just don't have any idea of what a real honest loving relationship is like
so we refuse to let go of whatever it is we have because we're terrified that there isn't enough love out there, or that we don't deserve better...so we just hang on to the madness and sickness and destructiveness and pain and ON & ON & ON.
where is joy?
addiction?
where is love?
addiction?
where is your baby's father?
addiction?
it's time for you to get your life!