I don't know how to say "I want to see you but I don't want to be tempted to drink." Maybe I should just say that.
maybe. I get this time of year is hard - but any time of year is hard.
I knew if I drank again I would probably never stop again - that helped me sort out my priorities pretty much.
I get that you're not at the same stage, and that at least some part of you keeps coming back to drinking as an option.
If you've decided you *have* to go to these things - and only you can decide that, and if you don't want to make a big announcement, you're not leaving yourself very many options but grinning and bearing it.
It's hard - but I know that can be done too....it just won't be much fun for a while.
I thought you were going to AA...but in any case any support you can garner, I'd use it pigtails
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