Originally Posted by BenRadBel

First family function down.... divorced... so sad. Why am I so sad? Not missing him, hating him for not being the man I wanted him to be. So sad the marriage failed. So mad he let me down. I just want to call him and tell him what a sorry POS he is! This is the first time I have cried since I made him leave. Now that evrything is final I feel terrible! I hate being so sad. I feel broken. My heart aches for what could have been or what I wanted it to be.

All the lies, deceit, and disregard for my feelings - why am I sad? All the nights I cleaned up puke and ****, picking up hidden bottles, feeling sorry for him.... Why am I so sad now??

Seeing my pregnant cousins, tears me a part. Happy for them, so sad for me. It should be me! Praying for strength, understanding and healing!

Venting, sorry... Pity Party for myself! I am stronger than this! Ughhhh!