It was so much pressure. I was trying to fix everything. Control everything. My life looked good on the outside, but inside I was a mess.
We may have come to our recovery here from different paths, but what you said above describes exactly how messed up I was before recovery too.
I am so glad you found recovery as a double winner, and I am grateful that you share your light with all of us.
And I must say that it tickles me just a little to visualize you calling Anvil on her BS early in her recovery...sorry Anvil, please know that I chose a sponsor that called me on mine too...but this one made me kersnickle
I am so glad you came to SR, and more glad you stuck around.
Hugs