I knew my sign.....last Christmas. I kept ignoring the sign until a few months after Christmas when it gob-smacked me across the back of the head! WHAM! Relapse, nasty words, right back at square one. That's when I let go.
It was very hard to let go - still having some really tough days but they are getting fewer. Things are falling into place the way they are for a reason and I just have to go with it........
Big hugs coming your way............