Hey Hopeful you sound really good. Holidays are very difficult for me too. I know that it is part of the addict's MO to use guilt to get what they want. Don't get conned. Keep talking about it here so you can get sane suggestions. Ever seen that bumper sticker that says "Screw Guilt?" Hey if it were only that easy.
Got any pics of your children in costume?
Things will get better.