I guess trigger would be the word for it. I don't look at her facebook anymore. I have little contact with Amber and her partying. I try my best to turn a blind eye to the amount of alcohol shes consumes and. How drunk she gets and that look on her face I've seen too many times on facebook and in person where her eyes are half closed her cheeks are red and that big dumb drunk smile. I pretend I haven't seen pictures of her bare butt or that I've seen her at age 19 in her underwear laying on my kitchen floor. I try to pretend that's not all there but I know the cause of all of it is alcohol. And I guess seeing my husband drink brings that all back. I hate it