Such concepts put into moving words, that I had to log in just to say thank you for writing this. You're entire post touched me deeply - but something that really resonated for me was taking that first drink all the way through...I mean, I know we say that...play the tape, what happens tomorrow...but, the way you wrote out each drink in your post, really made that concept come alive in vivid, if not horrifying color. Which is exactly what I need.
Truly - thank you, and congratuations.
Wishing you continued peace -
HS