Bummer that they took the video down. That was really a life changer for me...honestly.
I had a bit of a slip myself, friend. We just need to remember that what we did yesterday is far less important that what we do today. You are an intelligent woman who has a firm grasp of her own recovery. If you didn't, you wouldn't have typed these words.
I often find myself in conversations with my ex about what SHOULD have happened...or trying to defend my own decisions and actions against his irrational accusations. I then have to backtrack, stop the insanity and say "I am not going to continue this conversation with you. I am losing focus on what is important" and then redirect.
So, WTG, TG!!! Catching a slip and getting back on your feet is awesome. What a healthy way to live!