WTBH, you are going through a lot of the same things I am so I follow your posts. I just wanted to tell you my divorce was final Tuesday. I am very relieved, but that too has been sadder than I thought it would be. The divorce was necessary and I am glad I did it, but I just want to warn you, don't be surprised if you feel a bit of a letdown and sadness once it is final. That is what I am going through this week, reliving the good times in my head, wishing things could have been different somehow...I think it will take a long time to get past these feelings and remembering the "anniversaries".