Hmmm, I don't actually think for me that feeling feelings about a time that is dramatically different from now is bc of my codependency but I can see how it could become that if I were to just wallow in "wah wah it was so bad". That's not where my head is though.
To be honest there's little about the past that I've been thinking about for some time-- it caught me by surprise that I was reminded of all of this from last yr and reflecting about it has been helpful to see just how far I've come... When I posted earlier I'd just started to think about it and was feeling freaked out by, well, I guess the visceral feelings that came over me that reminded me of how I felt ALL the time until the past few months...
In an odd way, remembering just how nuts this time of year was last year makes me all the more grateful for what things are like now. I can't fathom how I functioned day in and out living as crazily as I did (meaning my full participation in the crazy).