AlaskaGirl,
Welcome. Please follow that first advice to get medical assistance with your detox. We want you here safely.
But when you're done with medical detox, come back to us here. What you're about to do is difficult and terrifying. But we'll be here to talk you through it. All of us have been at a place where we realized we had to stop, and it seems like an impossible task. But know that you CAN do it. We already care about you here, because we know how hard this was for us.
Take care, and I look forward to hearing from you here in the future.