thanks, shannon. i'm definitely struggling with the whole gratitude thing today. my head is telling me that i have dodged a HUGE bullet, but my heart is still aching for my lost love and bitter that things have turned out in this manner.
i think, right now, i'm scared sh*tless, even though i've been fully independent (financially...not so much emotionally) for years. i'm very aware of TIME today and, although i'm only 31, the realization that i've had three failed relationships (one marriage and two with addicts) has kinda left me feeling like i'm spinning my wheels and stagnating. quite frankly, the very thought of having to put myself out there again is a bit nauseating (which tells me i am in NO way ready to fully move on).
i'm doing my best to focus on me, but i have got A LONG way to go!!!
