I almost killed myself before I surrendered to the reality that I am powerless over my son's addiction. As I look back, I cannot believe how sick I allowed myself to become, how sick my whole world had become, all because I was desperately trying to save that which was not mine to save.
I will never ever go to that dark place again. Faith and prayer have replaced fear and despair in my life, and I am grateful for meetings, 12-step, and SR...all part of my lifeline to recovery.
I pray your son will find a better path soon. And, Lonelystar, I pray you don't let yourself get as sick as I was before I surrendered. Please try some meetings, you have no idea how much better you will feel just surrounded by live support.
Hugs
P.S. I love Robert Frost too.