I am constantly second guessing myself. I think a lot of that comes from the crazy life I had with my XAH. He always had a way of making me actually believe that I was in the wrong, and even crazy. I think that has been engrained in me now, and I am trying to overcome it. It sounds to me like you know that you ARE INDEED the rockstar that you are, but that there is some underlying insecurity there.
I think you are brave and I envy that. I have also considered doing a job that is more...interesting. I dread my job, not daily but at least weekly. I just don't have the guts to do it. I have a steady paycheck from a job that I know is mine as long as I want it. Maybe if I didn't have 2 kids to support (on my own, no child support to date) maybe then I could do it, but the idea that I could actually lose income, even for 1 week, scares me enough to just stay put.
I hope whatever you decide makes you happy and financially sound.
