Old 10-14-2011, 09:08 AM
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Leaping
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By the time my husband was hiding the bottles, he was well progressed in the disease, the lying and the manipulation. His drunk behavior meshed so well with his sober behavior that I honestly could not tell when he was buzzed at times. I refused to ride in the car with him at that point and he was not allowed to drive any family member. I thought he was only having a few beers and only a few days of the week. I was wrong and it was shocking at how much he was drinking once the truth came out.

What I am trying to say is that once I found the bottles and despite me thinking it was now and again, it was already out of control for him.

It gets worse, the lying gets worse, the uncertainy gets worse. Every thought, every action, everything my AH did was to protect the disease. I was powerless.

BUT I was not powerless over my own decisions and the environment my kids grow up in. Peace to you, I remember well those early days of discovery and fear. You are in my thoughts -
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