Hi Jeannie
I never thought I could do it either - I'd try and try again...for 15 years.
The trouble was I just trying the same things over and over.
SR really tipped the balance for me - I realised I wasn;t alone, and that by reacjhing out I not only found support but ideas about what to do from here.
It really is possible to change your life - if I can do it anyone can.
If you're having feelings of self-harm, I really hope you'll take the time to read some of the stuff in these links - it's important to reach out in this respect too
http://www.soberrecovery.com/forums/...ease-read.html
I've had the most amazing 4 and a half years, living free and sober.
I so nearly made the choice not to be here. I would have missed so much.
you're among friends here Jeannie - you're not alone
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