Lots of my friends can drink responsibly but they are not alcoholics. I am not around them during times were alcohol is or was or will be present. They know its not part of what I can be around as they know I am an alcoholic and if they didn't know , I told them.
The selective addiction of alcohol is with me and its all or none for me and same within my family tree. The only time I taper or control is knowing the horror awaiting the withdrawal ahead...prior to yet another visit with the Dr...and the desire/desperation again to get back to the fullness of sobriety .....I still struggle but see that the effort is worth it and we are not alone. The binges have decreased in duration and intensity as I get older and more afraid and sure want this one to be the last but its one day at a time. So I will be sticking to SR and meetings and whatever other thing I can before the insanity of "just one" hits.