Yeah I know I shouldn't care and I shouldn't let how he is treating the relationship make ME feel worthless. But I guess it just takes time and I am definitely trying to teach myself that every day...baby steps. I get it for the most part but some days I just feel sad.
I guess the other thing that bogs me down sometimes is the fallacy that he is living in a fairytale now. When in reality all he is probably doing is using and befriending/ girlfriending more hostages in his disease. Just gotta keep reminding myself that!