I feel badly that the 23 year old man would prey on a 15 year old for dates. You've been through alot. You are always welcome in the rooms of recovery NA where you'll meet many people with similar stories where you can hang out with and not feel so lonely. Fortunately you recognize that you have a serious problem and you are trying to do something about it (very commendable) Keep up the good work. There are specialized meetings for young persons in recovery that may also be of help to you. Good Luck.