Bayliss, I've been reading your posts since I came to SR and I've seen how you've struggled. I can relate to it. Some people can set the bottle down, walk away and never look back. Some people can't. I haven't been able to. I hope I can this time, but who knows? Please keep in mind that you're not a bad person trying to get good...you're a sick person trying to get well. Just keep trying. We'll love you until you learn to love yourself.
--Fenris.