I don't think I loved the addict I knew, I did not love myself.. and he obviously didn't love himself either, being an active addict. So we were just playing out our issues with each other, I was guaranteed abandonment from him, and he was guaranteed a Mommy because he lost his real mom some years ago and took the bottle instead of mourning.
You are totally right, love cannot exist without trust, it may be affection, lust or something else. Not love, love opens your heart.. it does not close it...
All the best in your journey.