Thanks for all the feedback. Its the usual Dr Jekyll Mr. Hyde problem. Right now is horrible but other days are great. I read some CAL literature last night that reminded me that I'm dealing with someone with a disease. I don't know what I'm going to do as this morning brought more drama. I definitely am experiencing a SLIP - Serenity Losing Its Priority and not keeping the focus on me as I should. As "Programmatic" said he's got my attention and that's what has to change. I can't afford to get sucked into the disease of A. I'm going to my HP and laying it in his hands and if its his will for me to walk - trust and believe - I'm outta there. But Just For Today I'm going to remember to take care of myself and let God figure out the rest.
Thanks again