And to say willpower isn't enough is the same as saying there is no hope.
No. It isn't. There is all kinds of hope but you have to actually DO something if you want to finally stop drinking for good. If you recovered once already, why are you having to do it again? There are several things you can DO to stop drinking. AA isn't mandatory and if you want to try something else, then you should. The point is you have to DO something, not just sit around and hope you can keep from drinking today. You are pregnant and if that isn't incentive enough to stop drinking, then you need help.