Originally Posted by
wantscontrol 
Proud of myself but scared and frustrated. I am having difficulty with the fact that I truly may NEVER be able to pick up a drink again. I wish that I had control like others do.
<-- this is how i feel.
Congrats on 5 days!! Todays is 8 for me
I have tried several times at staying sober, sobriety once lasting over a year. I, like you struggled with the thought of "never" being able to drink again. I always hear 1 day at a time... but I don't think I really worked that in my prior attempts at staying sober. I definitely did this past weekend and was so glad that I did. I reminded myself several times at the wedding that I was at on Saturday... "Just get through tonight", tomorrow will be a new day and hopefully the urge will not be as strong. Thankfully, Sunday I woke up and felt so good about getting through another day successfully!
Your hear for a reason... keep reading and posting!