I look forward to hearing from you as you go through this process. There is nothing you can post here that will gross any of us out (maybe I should just speak for myself here...) but we have all been through it and it really does help to share when you are going through the worst of it.
We're here for you and wish you well as you get to the other side!!!
"If you canít be a good example, then youíll just have to serve as a horrible warning".