I have issues with the fact that I LET this happen to me.
I knowingly brought children into the world w/ this man. Yes it was because I love him...but I sure wish I had known then what I know now...
and wish I had the courage to make the change I needed to make rather than keep trying to make it better.
Now...19 yrs later. I do still love him. He's in recovery but still treats me the same. Basically I didn't realize it wasn't the booze that was making him an A$$hole...that's just naturally how he is.
I wish I had walked away. I wish I had seen what my future would become and run the other way. I wish I had the courage to leave NOW...but I don't yet.
I almost wish my RAH would find himself a nice codie gf to get him the h3ll outta here and then I wouldn't have to make these decisions at all.